Life drawing

 

From last night's life drawing session.

I usually don't like slim models who have what one might consider

"a pretty body."

I find it kind of boring. 

I like sags, fats, folds, and 

unexpected shapes.

But for some reason I found this model so attractive

that I actually enjoyed drawing her.

Perhaps it was her personality.

She was friendly and open

unlike many other models I've seen.

毎週行ってるクロッキークラス。

昨日はモデルが時間通りに現れなくて

困ってしまったセンセイ。

クラスメートのクリスが

少し遅れてきた生徒さんに向かって

「Are you the model?」と聞いたら

「いや今日は描きに来たんだけど、でもやってもいいよ」

ということで、急遽脱いでモデルさんに！

なんてラッキー。

結局、来るはずだったモデルさんは現れず。

不思議なこともあるものです。

かべ

壁の向こうは

どうなってるんだろう

想像と比較して

からっぽになってしまう

そう感じながらも

そこから目をそらして

小さなひとつひとつを

見つめてみると

どれも
自然と深くかがやく

宝物のよう

日が沈んで

見えなくなっちゃううちに

＊＊＊＊＊

I don't know 

what goes on over there

outside these walls

I strain to see 

then almost lose my head

What would it take 

for me to remember

that the sun does not stay up

forever

Black Crow

The black crow.

He was warm and heavy.

It felt good to have his body heat 

next to me.

Made me feel less alone.

It felt good to have someone 

that seemed to want to be with me.

It seemed impress some people.

It believe it showed that I'm lovable.

But he was big and heavy.

Don't know how much longer 

I could've held him.

川の流れ

川の底に沈んで

流れが流れていくのを

ただただじっと感じてるんだよ。。

って彼女が言ったの

そうよね

それだけでいいんだよね

I simply sit at the bottom of the deep deep river

Quietly feeling the current go by

Struggle against it and I suffer more

So I just close my eyes and sit...

That's what she said

and I no longer feel alone

Grateful

when we can
 just be there

 feel the air and smile together

sharing a pocket in the tree

  

同じ空間を共有すること

ただただ響き合うことを

意味を探らずに喜べるとき

幸せだなと思う

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Today's inspiration

大切に守って

これだけはって思う場所から

離れる勇気を

 I hope to know always

the courage it takes

to be willing

to feel the ground

from a brand new place.

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Today's inspiration

When I really open my eyes and listen

It can all seem so erratic and nuts.

 Thank goodness

for the ever changing seasons

and the blue sky

that's always there.

じっとその場にいなさい。

そんなシンプルなこと

この頭ができるはずないでしょ

って言いたくなるけど。

When the mind is elsewhere

 

when it's out of focus

without the need to have an answer

or a nicely packaged result

that's when I'm the closest.

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Today's inspiration